Inner Thoughts of Love and Life

I'm Lost Without You

2010-12-19T10:11:00.000-08:00

At first we loved, but not again.
We met at the mall,
and we talked ever since.
We stood starring at each other,
I wondered the time, we'd
Stand together. Holding hands
as we walk down the street,
I wondered when our lips
Would meet.
My heart is broken, u seem
to ignore, The pain I
have, when u left me sore.
Our love was strong In which now your
heart is blind to see, now I feel
that your love has forgotten
completely about me.
Well all in all I'm heartbroken
Without u by my side,

I wish we could love each

other like we did that one time.

What could I say?

2010-07-27T03:58:00.001-07:00

” I cry for the time that you were almost mine,
I cry for the memories I’ve left behind,
I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new,
I cry for the times I thought I had you”

After a million miles

2010-07-21T02:57:00.000-07:00

I'm back to blog finally >.<"
Yeah, it's been a long long long long long and a freaking long time since my last bloggie about what's happen around. Everything has change in just a few months or maybe a year I could say...and what I've finally got a new babe in ma house *YaY* which you can actually seen it in my header *a picture of ma new babe*.

One year has gone...some friends got married and some got lost but still I'm here for myself. I'm having my finals now..hopefully everything will be going fine till my grads. I've been lazy-ing for these few months. I'm just to lazy to continue everything. It seems that everything I do, I never get to finish it..everything it's like a failure to me. Family getting over, friends getting off and study going down. It's been a really bad year for me...I don't wish more...I just hope that everything will be better and when things go better, that's when I'll be happy...

Oooo..yea, last weekend was a hectic working for TM..it's fun but tiring weekend though...Met with a long lost pretty lady too and of course I did took a nice pic with her *3rd place in Ms.WCG*

Presenting the beauty and the beast *bleak*

Our Broken Family

2010-01-19T10:05:00.000-08:00

Our Broken up family,
so disjointed,
and unfamiliar to me.
I feel lost in my own home.
Where did we all go?
What happened to the happy days?
All I see now, is a broken family.

I look at the picture,
hanging on the wall.
Happy faces smile back,
taunting me with the past.
They seem to say to me,
look what you ruined,
when you came back.

Our broken family,
wears a mask for the world.
No one sees the pain beneath.
yet I can see in their eyes,
the knowledge hidden there,
they heard the fights.
They are only being polite.
They know it's all wrong,
behind the bleak walls of home.

Our broken up family,
lives for the kill.
We sit and ponder,
conjuring up new ways.
To harm each other.
Making our own lives miserable.

Life shall never be the same again,
yet as I cry myself to sleep.
I hope for a better life.
Dream of a new begining.
I find that retribution,
in slicing myself to peices.
In the thrill, of feeling alive again.
The sight of blood a reminder,
life goes on.

An angel in my Hell.
It takes my life.
Consumes it wholly,
not a trace left to find.
No more pain, no more anger.
At last free.

Our broken family,
would never miss,
one member.
They would soon forget,
all about my pathetic being.
They'll go about,
their blissfully ignorant life.
And walk right on by.
Their life will go on.
My poor broken family.

sIck ass

2009-12-26T12:28:00.000-08:00

Finally I fell sick for few days..sleeping for hours like a bull dog. Holidays now..been working for the past few weeks but no work atm..it's really bad and I'm dead broke now..waking up 3 at noon and bed 6 in the morning..that's so sick for holidays..duh. I had fun tho..thanks to my friends for their home-cook food and bunch of old secondary schoolmates for Christmas celebration. Guess I had too much fun for the holidays..haha..let the pictures do the work..

home-made yong tau foo by Gobury and Fynessa *yummy*

Our tables@Dolphin Cafe

It's so freaking hot and packed with people..everyone screaming for Christmas!!!

Finally, we headed home for some real thing!!!

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!!!

A sleepless long holidayz

2009-12-06T12:01:00.000-08:00

Days passing just in a blink of an eye...It's already December and finally I'm done with my finals..woo wee!!! But....I didn't really did it well for exams..anyway I just want a passing marks *pray god* I don't need to wake up early in the morning for class anymore..I don't need to rush my assignments anymore..haha!!! Damn..I have to worry about my intern now...hopefully everything will be fine. I'm stucked with 3 subs left and I can't go for my intern initially..duh..but still I will go for it..so let's fuck it. My holidays just started few days ago..can't imagine I had a crazy day with my crazy classmates..woke up in the early noon and went to M-square and night again for some liquor at Sanctuary..it's really tiring, I guess I'm old dy..anyway I really appreaciate the day I spent with my friends...Happy holidays and good luck for intern next sem!!!

~END~

2009-11-12T11:03:00.000-08:00

It's time to blog about what's happening here! Well...there's nothing much to blog actually cus i've been working every night and worrying about my finals..no outing..no friends calling and so on..I know that I don't have many friends now..haha..alrite I remembered I had a birthday celebration with Ben in MoS...Yessss, getting drunk is still the best for me!!! I'm just a home-alone! He's drop dead after a lomborghini shot! That's all..everyday is a sleepless night..what to do?!?! really need to cut down my coffee crazee or else I'll need some sleeping pills..ooh coffee..im just addicted to you! Here's some photo's we had in MoS last Thursday..

Very very blur photos from my stupid phone..

~THE END~

Saisaki Japanese Buffet

2009-09-23T12:36:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm..this is probably my belated birthday lunch spent from my sis..can't really remember when was the last time we had this outing together.. I was actually force to wake up at 11 morning because of this..ahha. We headed to Saisaki Japanese Buffet at Wisma UOB and shop an hour in Pavilion..anyway I was enjoying the day with my mom and sis..and of course my new top jeanz from my mom and sis as my birthday prezzie!

Here are the pics stolen from my sis bloggy..

Those cups are all mine!

Thomas n sis

The unwaken faces..anyway love my mum & sis!

Don't so picky!

On the way to Pavilion, it was a long journey..duh

The last words..

2009-09-13T11:57:00.001-07:00

Finally I had myself back to blog..It came to my mind to blog when I was driving home. Yesterday was a good day for me, I never really taught I could celebrate my little chicken day with few friends and for those wishes that came to me that surprised me with a little shock. It might not be the happiest moment for me but I did appreciate everything that I had on my wonderful day especially from my parents..which present me a nice little stuff and a warm dinner. Time flies really fast and I'm twenty-three this year. I think I am a boy, but when I go out, there are many kids call me uncle, so I have to accept that I am an old man now. It is probably the one and only day in my life that matters and makes me feel special. I would like to thanks a million for everyone who still remembers. It means alot to me!

That's for myself (^.^)

HaPPy bIrtHday to myself..

2009-09-11T22:56:00.000-07:00

It is just another day,
nothing special anyway,
no surprises to say,
just an ordinary day,
no friends came by today,
to wish me happy birthday,
I started my day,
with breakfast out by the bay,
alone on a sunny windy day.

I watched the tide go away,
another year older today,
its a scary thought anyway,
as a walk along the beach astray,
I talk to myself and say,
happy birthday to me today's my birthday!
as i lay alone and catch some rays,
of this beautiful birthday day,
Happy Birthday to *myself*

In The Begining

2009-09-09T11:47:00.000-07:00

How do I start...
Where do I begin
It always seems hard...
Starting all over again
When I first met you...
You put a smile on my face
Wanting to be near you...
And feeling your embrace
The closeness of you...
Gives me a special feeling
Its something so true...
So very full of meaning
Like an angel sent from above...
You brighten up my day
And just like the feeling of love...
It'll never fade away
I treasure the relationship...
And the feelings we have for each other
Its something more than friendship...
Something worth to remember
I will always cherish...
The times we've spent together
It will never perish...
Now until forever

Happy Merdeka!

2009-09-01T07:46:00.001-07:00

Alrite..time for another post, last Sunday was a really bored ass day..taught there's no outing but nonetheless i received a called from my very very very old classmates from high school..so there we go..went to Alor for dinner and shop-shop awhile with Ms.Teris..

Drinking at Steven's..ordered a teh-o-ice and teh-ice which made me paid 9 bux!

The crowd before reaching 12..too bad there's no celebration here..

Back at work!

2009-08-22T03:19:00.000-07:00

Uhhhhh...it seems like there's alot of spiders webbing around my blog. The last update was on the April..heh..it's been a long time. Hmmm..after a 3 weeks of holidays which is actually 2 weeks official holidays and 1 week unofficial. It's been really alot of things happened..first of all, I need to get a new job soon..business been really bad these days which my company decided to close down so I guess thatsit! Uhhhh..never been really mix up with my friends lately..after class and work head home for my drama series till night and bed..it seems like a life now. Everyone in different path..friends wouldn't know what is happening around..everyone is fighting each other just to be better so I think i need to get myself up as well..been drinking with some friends few weeks back..will go around with some pictures when i'm free ^o^ ...just that i'm lazy now..haha!

cIaos!

Missing In Action

2009-06-08T11:58:00.000-07:00

Guess i'll be back in few days time to update my blog back..a little busy but actually i'm not..a little lazy hehe..been busy with my finals over here..chill everyone!

Neway crazee

2009-04-24T01:58:00.000-07:00

Okay..here's another session of Neway..This time with Kelven, Candy and Desmond..quite bored actually becus only me and Kelven sang most of the songs while both of them busy ?!?! (that's what couple like) haha..anyway the price is actually not that expensive compare to Redbox..it's worth the bucks..Candy left early so left us both gay in there sang till 3 a.m and left..

Too bad food finished!

Peace arrr?!?!

Finally!

2009-04-24T01:47:00.000-07:00

Finally I have my little time to blog since I'm at work with line here. I was having my holidays for a week so decided to meet up with Allen for brunch..crapping etc. I received a sudden called from Mr.Xfac to join us..so it is actually more craps around..we went to ss2 somewhere for porridge but sadly it was closed so we head to roasted duck rice which is closed too..finally we went for the famous pork noodles which is not famous already. About 5 we went to a mamak b'sides Restaurant New Paris and head back up early becus of night market is going on in ss2 and it is so jam!

This fella sms-ing gf lor..

the top is nasi lemak..guess whats on the bottom? The flat one..

Past 2 days

2009-04-16T11:21:00.000-07:00

Okay..i was lazy to post about the updates for this few days..actually i've already added the photos from my phone to my laptop..so why not? Been working out with alot of last minute assignments and proposals..actually most of the time I was dreaming more than listening in the class. Okay cut that crap, past 2 days..actually I've already promise a friend of mine to fetch him at Kepong for a drinks but anyway I ter-ffk him..sorry Allen (I know you will read this so confirm next week I'll come over because I've got no class for the whole week!) Kenny finished his night market work early and he suggest to go for karaoke session..so we proceed without any hesitation because he trest us mah..haha. I really enjoyed the 4 hours we had and we almost sing till drop. We never took the member's price but he went for the normal price because each person will get 3 drinks which you can exchange one food. For member's you will only get 1 drinks..so why not go for non member's rite..

Forgotten what song is this..just simply take ny

When you are cold in the room, try not to order fried rice..better go for a bowl of nissin noodles

Try this for strawberry lovers..its blended!

PC Fair

2009-04-12T10:49:00.000-07:00

Today went to PC Fair at KLCC..damn alot of people! I met a friend of mine there and bought a sandisk thumbdrive..when i walk around..DAMN i saw some cute thumbdrive..i was like DAMN! So I called my friend ask him weather wanna buy thumbdrive anot...muahaha lucky he want it..so i bought the one I want! haha! The parking as usual RM10..duh..met with few classmates of mine who works there as well. It was heavily raining around 5, me and Edmund went to somewhere near times square for our lunch..reach home bout 7..the ven jam hours and petrol can't even cover how cheap was the thumbdrive and things selling in PC Fair..duhhh..

Damn Busy!

2009-04-08T05:15:00.000-07:00

I was really damn busy this few days but only in the afternoon..ouch presentations again n again..but I'll be damn bored when night falls, who's free please bring me out to chill..

Passsssst

2009-04-03T10:18:00.001-07:00

Whoops..it's time to update a little on what i did these few days hehe. Last week I received a sudden called from Kelven saying that we are celebrating Peanut's birthday so after work I grab my ass to SS2 eventhough i'm seriously sick and it's pouring a little rain but it was a fun celebration which made everyone laughing stock because of the damn cake was too hard..each of us paid RM5 for a stone cake bought from Kwaiting which was the place he working now.

This cake is hard as stone!

We don't need plate to eat the cake..just fork it out!

Back to college, Campbell is promoting their new instant soup so everyone get a cup of it for FREE..you can even choose the flavour yourself..it's freaking nice *lol*

~THE END~

Bored in class

2009-04-02T12:54:00.000-07:00

My friends is too bored in class..

wtf is emo kid..hahahaha!

Fun became Tragedy

2009-03-30T10:38:00.001-07:00

I was actually working on Saturday but initially my boss invited me and my colleague to his house party celebrating his daughter born for the first month which chinese people usually did that. So we closed bout 6.45 pm and straight to my boss house lor..we reached there around 7 ish, no people was there..so we sat for awhile, bout 8 ish we had our dinner and the place is getting pack and pack..so many peoples..had 2 bottles of red wine and 2 cans of beer then proceed to Coco for another session with Johnny..It was a fun night but tragedy happens..one of his friend got whacked by a gang of people. I dont know what was happening actually..I was walking to the car and received a sudden call from Johnny saying that his friend got whacked by a bottle of chivas causing his head bleed like fuck..so I ran back and sent the feller to hospital..it was a sad case so I end my day here..went home bout 4 ish..slept for 5 hours and back to work..now I drop dead!

Drinking the whole bottle of red wine..gotta sit with uncles n aunties cus table all packed dy..

The crowds inside..those shooter girls are sooo cheapo's!

Tagged by Mei Teng!

2009-03-30T10:10:00.002-07:00

1)Beside your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
- I still prefer lips either, maybe the nose?

2)How did feel when you woke up this morning?
- I'm late to class for an hour..but when i reached there it was cancelled..zzz

3)Who is the last person you took a photo with?
- I mostly camwhore..

4)Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Just a little bit naughty..

5)Would you ever donate blood?
- I can't because im underweight..

6)Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
- I think so..

7)Do you want someone to dead?
- Yes, my enemy!

8)What does your last text message say?
- What time celebrating happy birthday to Mr.Xfac

9)What are you thinking now?
- I hope my flu will gone tomorrow..

10)Do you wish someone was with you now?
- Yesssss...miss her!

11)What time did you go to sleep last night?
- 4 in the morning

12)Where did you buy the T-shirt that you are wearing now?
- Body Glove

13)Is someone in your mind now?
- Yesss..the one who tagged me..damn

14)Who was the last person to text you?
-Kelvin

10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO THIS QUESTIONNAIRE.
- Can I tag 4 people because I don't have 10 friends..zzz
1)Marcus Tang
2)Wai Keong
3)Darren Leon
4)Allen

15)Who is no.2 having relationship with?
- I don't know

16)Is no.3 a male or female?
- Male

17)If no.7 and no.10 together, would it be a good thing?
- Null

18)What is no.1 studying about?
- Graphic Design

19)When was the last time u chat with them?
- More than 6 months probably

20)Is no.4 single?
- Of course not!

21)Say something about no.5.
- Null

22)What do you think about no.3 and no.6 being together?
- Null

23)Describe no.9.
- Null

24)What would you do if no.6 and no.8 fought?
- Null

Insomnia?

2009-03-21T12:19:00.000-07:00

It's practically 3.20 in the morning now, I should get to bed..gotta be early to work tomorrow. Everyday, there is alot of things running along my mind..it isn't gonna be helping me much putting me to sleep. I feel it's like a hard time to me everynight i try to bed early. I had a conversation with a friend of mine which she said 'Do you have insomnia?'..i'm not sure about it but the advice she gave gave me is listen to some songs..which i'm not sure what songs that will make you feel sleepy. Fapping is another way i think..lol..it sucks! I just can't sleep..

Chillin' night

2009-03-20T23:07:00.000-07:00

what is this 3 so chai's doing?

All play with camera's, I could only use my phone *sigh*

Important things

2009-03-20T12:09:00.000-07:00

when u love someone,
everything of the person is an important things.

when u love someone,
u do care of every single words she/he said.

when u love someone,
u feel happy when he/she is around and unhappy when he/she not around.

when u love someone,
u are no longer confident infront of the someone.

when u love someone,
u lost interest of the others.

when u love someone,
he/she will be ur world.

when u love someone,
ull be very excited n happy with lil care from he/she.

when u love someone,
u feel bad when he/she ignore u...its like how u hurt someone the loves you.

A true friend or a good friend?

2009-03-18T11:55:00.000-07:00

A GOOD FRIEND WILL COME BAIL YOU OUT OF JAIL.....

A TRUE FRIEND WILL BE SITTING NEXT TO YOU SAYING "DAMN...WE FUCKED UP!"

My Diary II

2009-03-13T11:29:00.001-07:00

With my begging, her heart softened, but she still put up an annoyed face and walked into the park. She sat on the benches looking like she wanted to leave. I went to the big oak tree to look for something. She knew I was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. It said, "Gary and Christine was here, Gary had a tea and Christine had a hot chocolate. Hope we would always remember this day, always loving each other forever." I was looking around quite a while, then I came back slowly with tears on my face.

I said to her wrongly, "I can't find it, it's not there anymore." I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain flowing into my heart, the kind of pain that I've never felt before. But all she do was pretend she didn't care and said, "Can we go now?" She opened up my umbrella, I was just standing there hoping there was still a chance. I said, "You made up the story of you and that other man didn't you?" I know I always made you sad, but I'll change, can we start over?"

She didn't say a word, just looked down and shook her head. After that, we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.

Two years ago, she did the same thing to me. I know she had her reasons. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about her. I didn't think about her until a year ago she called me out for dinner. First I taught the feelings would go away, but it grew stronger until the point that I couldn't take it anymore. The person that I love the most in this whole world, that I couldn't let go.

The train had stopped running so I called a taxi. We were just standing there, waiting and loosing our last moments in silence. I saw the taxi from far, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself..promise me."

She didn't talk and just nodded lightly. I opened up my umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red and one black, so far away from each other. She opened up the door for me and I got in, then I closed the door that would separate me and her forever. I was in the car, staring at the dark window , at the first love in my life and also the last one who walks out of my life. The car started driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly to her because I knew this would be the last time I see her. I wanted to tell her that I love her so much but the taxi had already turned into the corner. Warm tears keep falling down my face blended with rain drops. I was cold not because of the rain.

I was cold inside for loneliness and sadness.

-THE END-

My Diary I

2009-03-13T10:59:00.001-07:00

Story of a four years relationships..

It has been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seem so restless and gloomy. I called her and said I was comming up. It was the third time I came up to see her that week by walking 2 hours to her house. She carried my excuse of why I came all the way here and went to meet me at the nearby Seven-Eleven. I was standing there alone, carrying a red umbrella. It was raining and I was shivering. It was the day that I looked so weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep me warm.

She walked up to me and said, "You shouldn't come to see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be togather. I said, "I Miss You." She told me coldly "Lets go home." I did not open up my umbrella because I wanted to share with her. She said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."

Unwillingly, she opened up my umbrella and walk with me to the car. I said I haven't eat lunch or dinner and ask if we could stop at some place to eat. Right away she answered with a stoned heart, "No." Dissapointed, I ask her to take me to the nearest train station and said I would take the train back home.

Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, I looked at her innocently. Being togather for so long, of course she knew what I meant. She understand how I feels when I came all the way here in this kind of weather and she treated me like this. With my soft eyes staring at her, she felt guilty and wanted to let me stay for the night.

But reality struck again, She said to me coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."

I was living in the same apartment with her sometimes. Back then there were four of us which is me, her, her elder sister and husband. We would always eat lunch, dinner and supper togather and sometimes watch movie. We were more like a family. Maybe it was during the last few years when I was working, having living for one year, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she started her new life, everything started to change.

We were walking along the roadside. I was infront of her with a broken umbrella. I looked like a wounded soldier, carrying my rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, I was too into thinking or what whatever I was doing, drifting off the road and almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wish she could take me in her arms, but with the love she had for me and the constant pain in my heart, she did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go. I begged her and said, "Let's go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."

to be continue..

Harvey Norman

2009-03-09T03:14:00.000-07:00

The plan was to get a new Acer notebook for my lil sis at Harvey Norman, Pyramid..I end up bought myself a 20" Wide Acer LCD Monitor..which they are having a promotion for RM399 and RM359..which is RM40 bux discount on the monitor when you buy a notebook. Overall, it was not what I expected but it's wide and most of em..the price is affordable!

P/S : Mammy, you planning to buy a notebook rite, try Harvey Norman..

Warm Greetings

2009-03-08T10:41:00.000-07:00

I guess this is the most funniest and happiest things I seen everyday I enter my house by opening the door, a very warm greetings indeed..hehe

*wooF wooF*

LoL myself

2009-03-05T11:41:00.001-08:00

Remember my post about 'I met a new friend today?' I guess it's true..i've been hanging out with this friend quite sometimes..for some chit chat and few dota games..and errr NO..NO, i'm not gay!

MsN sick

2009-03-04T09:42:00.000-08:00

Was really tired with work these few days..It really works to make me sleep 2 hours earlier. I've always been logging to msn..i realised that almost all of them are on msn but most of them won't have a chat with you..I was wondering why? Why people log in to msn but leave it away or so on? What's the point duh. I have to admit that I actually did that too when i'm working but not at home though..I take on msn to chat with friends but most of them either not replying or they are on but it's like they don't even bother about msn..what for you log in to msn? lol..damn

2009-03-02T11:47:00.000-08:00

Finally i have a nice matching photo for my blog title..thanks to Mr.Xfac
hehe..

Sleepless

2009-02-27T12:25:00.000-08:00

It's already 4.45 in the morning, I've been surfing around reading blogs around my friends and some forums as well. Exams it's over, I really can't get through this..hopefully I could even pass one of the paper. I never prepared for my exams even went hanging out though the next day it's the time for exams and I should have studied on the paper. I've always been breaking down by all this..when I was studying, i need to face financial problems and when im working I have yet think of studying to get a better life..whine whine and whine to myself for being useless. There's really no one could really cares or tried to understand you better than yourself. After all this breaking up days..whatever it is, I really tried so hard to forget about it till the last 2 days while I was driving to fetch a friend of mine. I turned on to MixFM, they had an advertisement saying that when you're sad, you will listen to this type of songs which made u more sad..when you are lonely, you will listen to this type of songs which made you more lonely. The conclusion is to keep yourself busy and mix around with your friends..I think there's a alot of relationship break up problems nowadays..I'm not sad when I heard about it..damn, it just made me laff..need to do such advert to convince those heartbroken people anot? I think blogging is a way to overcome such situation too cus when you are sleepless..you can actually do that, like what i'm doing now.

*what a crappy post*

Sometimes...

2009-02-25T10:34:00.000-08:00

Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must.

Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love.

Sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily ever after.

Sunday

2009-02-22T09:15:00.000-08:00

I was wondering around Puchong with few friends..while on the way back we dropped by to Kakimotor which is located at Sunway for a little event..eventhough its rain badly but the people still cheering for trophies..we reached around 4 and it ended at 5..we are late though..(gotta blame the somebody for his forgetful memories!) because we missed the FREE buffet..argh!

I met a new friend today..

2009-02-21T11:23:00.000-08:00

Wanna share a hilarious day here..I went out to wash out my photos for my assignments..there's a young guy who attended me..so i asked him for the cheapest one on 4R size photos. I don't know wether this fella is interested on me or i looked gay from his eye-sight. It's normal that he asked me 'Where are you studying? and..How old are you?'..where by i answered his question and patiently waited..suddenly he ask me to guess how old is him..so I guess you are 21-23? He laughed for a second and told me hes 19 and he asked me 'When you free we go for drinks okay?'..What the hell..my mind told me to say 'WTF? Do I know you?' but i didn't. I said sure no problem. He told me that he have no friends in here where he is staying here now *LOL*..He asked my for my number too...wth? Then i replied him 'WTF u normally do after work?' Go dota and drinks la..I collect the receipt and i quickly left from there..

Life without love

2009-02-20T09:07:00.000-08:00

Okay, im back to spend a little time updating my blogs here..it's been a really tiring day of outing not working for the two days. Yesterday night had a birthday with a friend of mine..2 bottles of liquor and 3 buckets of beers for 5 person. At first taught..i know we are going to get drunk like mad cow..went home bout 4 and woke up at 12. I was a having a tough times for the past few weeks..just hope that everything will be fine..trying to forget about the past and move on..luckily my friends are there for me besides working duh..went for futsal and supper and now im back with cracked bones!

Well, was having class for the week days..

Photo Studio & Lighting

Dinner at Taipan..looks nice? actually its NOT!

last but not least, birthday party at TTDI!

Oppsss..missing the birthday boy..

-THE END-

Another day passing by..

2009-02-11T10:33:00.001-08:00

Days passing by..nothing much in life exactly..been hanging around with some friends from day till night..that moment was a little bit crazy. It was like 15 hours a day driving my old junk going around Klang, PeeJay and Subang. Chinese New Year just passes..I was having my own sweet time of holidays for 2 weeks..gambling and drinking ish. Life is bored as hell besides working on weekends to burn up my time and rushing for my final assesments. Few days back, i met up with some of my very very old high school friends and one of my buddy. I love ur jokes Marcus, we sat like 3 hours just to hear what's happening around him back in Australia. Guess i gotta spend more time with them. Valentines comming guys..did you get any prezzies for your loves one? At least a rose, don't be stingy.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all my friends!

Late Entry

2008-12-04T19:08:00.000-08:00

It seems like i've been stopped blogging for about 2 months or more..Well said, i felt really bored out of blogging actually..it seems like a trend for those high school and college kids keep blogging about thier everyday life's..even a DUMB ASS know how to write a blog..So i rather stop blogging..and telling my friends about my life instead of blogging away. Life been sucks for the past few weeks..luckily my results are all good enough to continue on my next semester. This semester is quite tough though..i've been taking extra subjects just wanted to finish em asap. Anyone would like to give me hands by helping me to fill up few questions for my assignments? Just read a friend of mine blog..it gives me the mood to back in blogging for this entry today. It's been a harsh weeks for me..hopefully i could get my part time job asap and balance up my studies...realationships is getting worst and worst.don't wanna think about it..

Love is like waiting for a bus

2008-09-23T12:14:00.000-07:00

When the bus come, you look at it and you said to yourself, "eeee... so full...cannot sit down one". So you said to yourself, "I'll wait for the next one." so you let the bus go and waited for the second bus.

Then the second bus came, you looked at it and you said, "eeee...this bus so old...surely very uncomfortable one." So you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus. After a while, another bus came. It's not crowded and not old but you said, "eee... no air-con one...and the weather is so warm, better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late. You panicked and jump on to the next on coming bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded on to the wrong bus! So you wasted your time and money waiting for what you want! Even if an aircon bus came, can you ensure that the aircon bus won't break down or will the aircon be too cold for you?
So people...(mostly girls but guys too!) want to make sure that what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance, right? If you found that the "bus" doesn't suit, you just press the red button and get off the bus! But wait...I am sure all of you have this experienced before. You saw a bus is coming (the bus you want of course) you flagged it and the driver acted blur by pretending not seeing you and zoomed pass you! The bottom line of being loved is like waiting for a bus and whether you want to get on the bus and give the bus a chance depends totally on you and walking alone is just like being out of love. If you love someone set him/her free. If he/she comes back to you, you know they're yours. If they don't then it was never meant to be.
Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late.

Seize the day and never have regrets.

And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today. Pass this along to your friends. It could make a difference. The difference between doing all that you can or having regrets which may stay with you forever. Friendship is never an accident. It is always the result of high intentions, sincere effort, intelligent direction and skillful execution. It represents the wise choice of many alternatives. And remember.... Keep Smiling....coz... "Of All Things You Wear, Your Smile Is As love returns to me, As I return to you, As love returns to us. I guess this is really wonderful and make a lot of sense.

Happy Reading

Happy Birthday KerKer

2008-09-12T12:17:00.000-07:00

Nothing special this year for my birthday as I still can blog about it because today was the exact day of my birthday..anyway I would like to thanks to my dear friends who wishes me. After I had received few sms from friends today..only that I realize that actually I don't really have that much friends..I mean friends that remember my biggie day. Yesterday was a pretty sadist moment for me tho, I called few friends of mine..ohh well..I was abit thick I guess..I told them that my birthday is comming just around the corner..would you guys like to have a drinks tonight as I wish to get a big ice tea from Wong Kok restaurant..they told me that they aren't free..yea it's okay but after I end the conversation..I was like ' am I that fucktup that I don't even have any friends willing to spend a time with me? '. It was abit fucktup actually..huh..anyway I had my big ice tea today..hehez..

The last few years was a havoc..party-ing in the club and so on from midnight till morning but things really change alot as we grow older. For me..this year..all I want is nothing special than a normal birthday celebration..the most surprise gift that I had was from my family and my dear. The gifts that I had was a shock..it might be nothing so special but it is quite a big prezzie I had for so many times of my birthday overall. It's was the most memoriable birthday that I had for this year.

P/S - Happy Birthday KerKer..it was a name actually created by Lamb..lolz

Friends come and go..

2008-08-28T01:37:00.001-07:00

Been lazy-ing around lately..nothing much in life but i realise some friends that i'm close with getting far away..maybe it is because everyone busy scribbling with their own stuffs. I think that friends are not forever in a way but maybe some would like to give you a hand when you are in trouble..i mean some..1 or 2? others would run as far as they can. Since i shifted myself to another college it seems like i lost contact from most of my friends in previous college. And about others some might busy with work, some might busy with their boyfriends/girlfriends..what else? Some meet up with their new friends again. I remembered that one of my friend told me that his/her friends are always number one in place even their soulmate couldn't replace them..but i think it is actually fake tho. Now i know that a true friend is really hard to earn even one..the one who willing to give you a hand when you are in a trouble and cheering you up when you are down. Anyway i'm still looking foward to meet up with my best friend over Australia..damn miss his ass so much since he shifted to aussie..It was like 2 years back i met him when he came back ere..

I am DumB!

2008-08-25T10:32:00.001-07:00

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2008-07-31T03:04:00.000-07:00

Almost forgotten my blog here..just reminded me when my lecturer ask us who have a blog? Lotsa shit happens..firstly, i've been working with one of my friend call Ken for a one day event. It was back in 6 months ago which the pay is only RM60 no even paying petrol for me driving all the way to KL..till now he don't want to pay my salary giving excuse that he's busy and company run off without pay for him. Seriously i wouldn't work for this guy again..he looks innocent but actually he's acting a piece of shit. Last week had an accident again, a fucker hit and ran off..fucking pissed! Another 200 bux flew away for fixing it. Been having holidays for the past 2 weeks..sleep, wake and eat..one more thing..worried bout my assignments cause u never touch em before..seriously fucktup. Parents having conflicts again..everything bout money and money. Doesn't really have to mood to blog anyway..to those fuckers who hates me..please dont read this. I'm cursing you 'Fuck Your Ass' thank you..

2008-06-24T11:52:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since my last updates..

I was rushing to finish off my assignments today in college..because everything just need to be done by today or else my mark will turn down..so i spent 2 hours in the canteen to finish up my work and have breakfast..Did a Q & A from Levi's. After so much days i've spent in this college..i found out that everything here is really up to date unlike the old crappy college but seriously to say that i've got no friends in this college..time passes very slow everyday i enter to class..zzz

A gift from the Q & A reviews by Levi's

Nothing much..but it was interesting tho..what is in the envelope? Leaflets for the comming clubs like Quattro, new exotic thai cuisine, special events by Sanctuary and Official launch of Bubblegum by Scarlet..

Last Birthday Message

2008-06-10T09:43:00.000-07:00

Memories Of What Used To Be...

I wonders if you remembers me
Or if I'm just a memory
I wonder if you think of us
Or if you find it useless
I wonder how things would be
If you had never left me
I wonder how are you
And if I'm still a love of you
I think about you everyday
And wonder if you're okay
I think about how happy we were
And the memories make the tears stir
I think about the plans we made
While we were laying in the shade
I think about all we said
And the lives we lead
To not know where to go
To not know where to find
A place where you may hide
To not be able to see your face
Puts my heart so out of place
To not know when you're near
Is my greatest fear
There's so much in my head
That I wish I'd said
There's so many missed kisses
For my unanswered wishes
There's only so many ways
For me to make it through the days
There's so little light
In my heart tonight
What would I say
If given a day
What would happen
If I could have you
What joy it would bring
To hear you sing
What would I feel
If you would here for real
I miss you each day
That when you are away
I miss you looking out for me
The way it used to be
I miss you love
That protected me like a glove
I miss you
So much it's made my heart dim
I wonder if you still cares
That's a question that tears
I wonder what you like
If you tell me to take a hike
I wonder if you fears
That I don't hold you dear
But most of all
I wonder if you still loves me
Or I'm just a memory
Of what used to be.

Do You Remember The Flowers?

2008-06-05T11:31:00.000-07:00

Do you remember the flowers, I gave you,

The red one,

The blue one,

Do you remember the roses,

I brought for you,

The yellow one,

The pink one,

Do you remember of me,

My voice,

My smile,

Do you remember of our love,

The sad love,

The happy love,

What do you remember?

Can you see the sun,

Is about to rise up,

On the other side of the mountain,

Can you not see,

That the moon,

Is above the dark sky,

The stars are shining,

Can you feel the wind,

That flows across your face,

Can you feel my hands,

Touching your face,

Can you feel my love,

Can you feel our love?

Where have these things gone?

Why are you not with me,

Where are you right now?

The wind is heavy,

The sun is setting,

The mooning is moving away,

The clouds are dark and gray,

Your love is dead,

Your heart is cold,

You don’t know,

That you have hurt me,

You don’t know,

That I am still here,

Under the tears of love.

Where have the stars gone to?

When you were with me,

They shined above us,

Now you are gone,

The stars are gone,

The tears are drying out,

You are not here,

Your love is not here,

Where are you?

Where is your love?

Will you come back to me,

And tell me you love me,

Tell me,

You have never left me...

Stop For a Moment

2008-05-09T13:39:00.001-07:00

Dear readers, I'm sorry..i would like to stop my blogging for awhile. It's been alot of tough days happened to me. I've got no mood to update myself anymore.

2008-05-07T02:59:00.000-07:00

Finally I had my first ever collection scale 1:38 from Shell..hehe..

dileMMa

2008-05-02T10:27:00.000-07:00

Well, there's nothing much happened lately..time passes real fast. Some friends ive known for more than a year just like we have met for a week. Everyone is upgrading but not me..im still the same..doing useless shit..blogging, sleeping, shitting, smokin' and always get smoked by people. Finals is over..i've been going to bed everyday at 4-5 in the morning..can't really get myself to bed..maybe too much of coffee's and too much of head turning because of nothing much to do. Taught of looking for a job but my new semester is going to start on the 25th..still confusing should i continue or should i change to another college? I really have no idea..this few days been sitting at home and trying to make up my mind. Could anyone help me or give me some advise? I'm not choosy but i can't choose which road should i go. I'm so scared that i'll be stepping on the wrong lane again wasting my time...

Friendship

2008-04-30T01:02:00.000-07:00

I guess it's the time where we should waves for each other in the end of the day..having you guys as my friends is truly my pleasure. Eventhough, we get to know each other for not a long of 12 months but we had go through alot of saddest and happiest moment togather. I remember the place we used to chilled togather..the night that we celebrating our friends birthday and how do we get togather eventhough in different places. To my all my friends Sam, Desmond, Darren, Noel, Marcus, Allen, Wai Keong, Melsim and maybe another bunch of girls? *just joking* hehe..wish you guys all best in the comming semester in college!

A poem for True Friendship

True friends are for life,

Until the end,

They're more than special,

They're your bestest friends.

They're the ones you can go to,

When you're in despair,

The ones that'll help you,

Even when you got gum in your hair!

They're the ones who'll laugh,

And go laughing with you all through the night,

The ones who'll help you,

Help you with all their might.

To have a good friend,

You have to be one,

So be nice to one another,

So you can be friends forever,

And that's how to be the best friend you can be.

2008-04-28T05:26:00.000-07:00

stress
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i'm in dilemma again..

2008-04-26T12:02:00.000-07:00

I felt really sad today..it's already 3.03 am but i never receive any calls..i'm so dissapointed and feeling so hard to breath..

2008-04-25T11:42:00.001-07:00

Haha..just found out that there's really some people interested in peepings thru blogspot. Thanx Stef for supporting my blog yet giving comments..sorry for the blog a little crappy and a little manglish that is hard to understand but anyway we are still malaysian so 'la' in the end of our sentence is always normal la..right? hehe! Anyway jus came back from a drinking session with some friends but still lazy to do my revision cus blogging seems to be happier. Took some pictures today because of nothing really better to do la..

Caught a nice number plate when driving home..

Bought something today..

He looks boring than me!!!

lil bored@home

2008-04-23T11:32:00.000-07:00

As usual..it's 2.32am in the morning..i can't get myself into bed..because of what? no classes for the next morning, no plans and no outing..damn it's bored. Damn freaking lazy to revise for my exams..no tips so i have to revise em all !!! This few weeks been raining real bad for day and night..i couldn't wash my car..damn! Gonna be a lil crazee sitting at home for few days..either watch drama series or sleep. Mum's birthday just over for few days..bought a card and had a dinner with her. Hope she's happy with it..

Some Wonderful Thoughts to share

2008-04-18T11:24:00.000-07:00

Don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life...

Relationships work best when they are balanced.

Never explain yourself to anyone.

Because the person who like you doesn't need it,
and the person who dislike you won't believe it.

When you keep saying you are busy,
then you are never free.

When you keep saying you have no time,
then you will never have time.

When you keep saying you will do it tomorrow,
then your tomorrow will never come.

When we wake up in the morning, we have two simple choices.
Go back to sleep and dream, or wake up and chase those dreams.

Choice is yours...

We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.

This is the thruth of life, it's strange but true.
Once you realise this, it's never too late to change.

Time is like a river.
You cannot touch the same water twice,
because the flow that has passed will never pass again.

Enjoy every moment of life.

Bad Luck???

2008-04-18T03:24:00.000-07:00

Few weeks ago..someone whacked my car which cost me another 180 bux flew away. The god is fair sometimes when u wash ur car too clean somebody will be jealous *shit*

Another week past..yesterday was the last day for class..everyone getting nervous for our last presentation..some art work in lecture hall. Anyway exams comming next week!!!

2008-04-15T10:02:00.000-07:00

I have a story to share here, so ladies and gentlement please read em all or else you'll regret..

IMPORTANT TO LISTEN.
Little Johnny sees his Daddy's car passing the play ground and go into the woods. Curious, he follows the car and sees Daddy and Aunt Jane in a "Passionate Embrace".Little Johnny finds this so exciting and can barely contain himself as he runs home and starts to tell his mother excitedly...."MOMMY MOMMY, I WAS AT THE PLAY GROUND AND DADDY AND.." Mommy tells him to slow down. She wants to hear the story. So Little Johnny tells her. "I was at the playground and I saw Daddy's car go into the woods with Aunt Jane. I went back to look and he was giving Aunt Jane a big kiss, then he helped her take off her shirt, then Aunt Jane helped Daddy take his pants off, then Aunt Jane laid down on the seat, then Daddy.."At this point, Mommy cut him off and said, "Johnny, this is such an interesting story, suppose you save the rest of it for supper time. I want to see the look on Daddy's face when you tell it tonight."At the dinner table, Mommy asks Little Johnny to tell his story. Johnny starts his story, describing the car going into the woods, the undressing, the laying down on the seat, and..... "then Daddy and Aunt Jane did that same thing Mommy and Uncle Bill used to do when Daddy was in the army."

Sometimes you need to listen to the whole story before you interrupt!!!!

2008-04-05T01:04:00.000-07:00

2 days ago, received a sudden called from Kelven..hell he had an accident luckily its not a big one! Front driver window got smashed and side mirror gone..just about a lorry trying to reverse and hit his car. He called me and i guide him to the place in Puchong where the lorry driver agree to fix it for him at one of his friends workshop. Just know that it was the place where i used to service my car there..

End of Semester

2008-04-05T00:54:00.000-07:00

Another 2 weeks and im gonna end my last semester in college..hopefully everything is fine..everythings going well and im going to be having 2 papers from mass comm..can't concentrate on studies man..this semester was relaxing like shit..everynight outing, drinks, clubs..bla bla bla..money flow just like water..gotta wake up for my last 2 papers! daMn!

3 days ago..had a celebration with Sam my buddy in class..everyone taught he was faking that his birthday was on the 1st of April?!? We taught he's fooling us..anyway happie birthday to you. Went to Wong Kok at Old Klang Road for chilling and of course for a free big bowl of ice tea!

2008-03-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

A day of work in LuNa..freaking tired but overall a nice chill out place..

2008-03-09T00:01:00.000-08:00

Few days ago..

spent RM110 for this junk..

went to MV for a movie..look at the queue *sigh* miss the show again..

Stressin' day..

2008-02-29T10:33:00.000-08:00

Nothing much to blog lately..gonna be busy with my semester 3 onwards and results is comming on the 6th *stress* ..praying hard there's no resit again. Got addicted with some oldies, here are the lyrics. Hope all the readers lurve the song..

L.O.V.E by Nat King Cole

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please dont break it
Love was made for me and you

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please dont break it
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you
Love was made for me and you

2008-02-17T10:38:00.000-08:00

Sometimes life is really bored..there's nothing i can do besides dreaming, sleeping, eating, outing, looking for a job and go on with my studies. Everyday i did the same shit of things..and all i can do now is whining myself for being a dumbass. College will start very soon in few weeks, hopefully everything is fine especially my finals result..not goin to resit them again or else im going to be yen's roommate in sJmc..nothing much to blog lately..found a wonderful pic with yen singing in GreenBox and looking foward to have a look at the pics on the clubbin' day past few weeks ago..

2008-02-16T23:47:00.000-08:00

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Accidents..

2008-02-13T02:37:00.000-08:00

It was a really bad Chinese New Year. One of my friend just had a very bad accidents..everyone should be having their fun in holidays but it was a quite sad news for us..neway he's warded in SJMC and ive just visited him for the past few hours..hope he'll get better soon.

laughing for his brand new bumper, fender & headlamps..lol

Happy Mickey's Chinese New Year 2008

2008-02-06T11:56:00.000-08:00

I wish everyone here a sexy and luscious Chinese New Year. Licked by prosperity and penetrated by heavenly ang bao . May all your misfortunes be ejaculated before the year has climaxed!

Shit Happens..

2008-02-02T10:26:00.000-08:00

Sometimes bad things will happen on you..sometimes it will be worst..but normally bad things come to you when you are in a bad situation. What should i do? Everyday i stay happily by laughing and smiling..okay i told my friends that how bad i am having now..but the reply was "I'm worst than you' ..Maybe they worried that you will need his/her help when you are really in trouble as in money, transportation or something which will waste their time and money. So never trust your friends from now on! As for me, i knoe my friends quite well..even how close we are..when money talks..nothing else can beat em'..but it depends on which friends i guess. Anyway, im just cocking so please don't waste ur time by reading my shitty post..

exaM is Over..

2008-01-26T10:02:00.000-08:00

Today was the last paper i had and it was the easiest paper for me which consider i did it quite well..shouldn't be resiting for this little one. Exam is finally over but everything looks still the same..there's no holidays mood for me though. I felt that im just like a piece of crap..staying at home just for the comming week and so on till Chinese New Year..am i? It is 3.12 early in the morning and i can't get myself to bed..maybe because of too many ciggy's and coffee from just now..i had 4 of em started from the morning till night. Guess now i'll not be getting any sleep..tomorrow another bored ass day. I was called that i don't need to work because cny might be comming and there's not much work left. I felt really uneasy without work..what should i do?

Anyway, today had a lunch with all my college mates..celebration for exams? We had our lunch in a nearby cafe at Genting Klang. Afterthat, my friends head to the saloon to hav a haircut..went home bout 1..traffic jam for an hour..reached home bout 2..hav a nap then later on..dinner n a lil yum cha session with ma friends again..huh. Boring Saturday again..

Stewpid Marcus havin' haircut

Finals comming 2 weeks!

2008-01-17T09:56:00.000-08:00

Just did my first paper today..it is so bad..i knew it..out of 5 questions i only answered 2 which is not shooting with gun or copy from the same question paper..other than that, it was a really awful paper that i had today. Now, there goes another year for me in college..what to do..if you are stupid, you have to really accept it. What did i prepared for my finals..8 hours for sleep, 10 hours for work, 4 hours for yum cha and hanging out around..left another 2 hours for revision. DAMN! What the f... am i doing?!?! Last few days went to Klang to do some diy stuffs and wirings..took my dinner with Kelven and supper time with Mum (Candy) and Johnny. It's been a long time since we hang out again at Station 1 because normally i prefer a bowl of wan ton mee for only RM4 ...this chicken mushroom speghetti carbonara cost me for RM7 plus..

The picture in the menu shown few sausages was given but then i ordered mine...i only had one..why?

BUT i like da food and drinks..damn! The enviroment wasn't really good because the place was packed with bunch of peoples and the noise mixing up with the songs..i can't even communicate with my friends just sitting beside..by then i just shout or talk louder..overall it is a nice place to hang out especially with my friends!

Happy 80th birthday grandma..

2008-01-04T20:16:00.000-08:00

Another day in KL Hilton ballroom to celebrate my grandma birthday..the food wasn't really good but the service is acceptable..overall a nice vanue and kick ass 6 stars hotel ballroom..

The entrance

washroom

menu

everyone busy chit-chatting includin my mum..lol

it's over..but our family busy setting up photoshoot session..

We might be the last to go home..

HappI New Year 2008

2007-12-31T09:52:00.000-08:00

It is now 1.52 a.m in the morning..Well said, im actually damn free now to blog around while others busy celebrating their christmas, new year and so on. Some people are lonely, some people are full with excitement, entertainment and friends but not all of them. 2008 is not a happening year for me..what i did today was abit old fashionate..after work i called up my old friends to meet up (it was really a last minute plan because i have no where to go) i was actually..should i say being put on an aeroplane by some friends and some of them who gave some so called zero promises and never make it. Friends are really hopeless. It was a lil pissed off but it's alright since everyone have thier own plan. About 11-ish, I went dinner with 2 friends and then we head to Bukit Jalil for some fireworks..30 minutes way to reach and 10 minutes of fireworks..overall it's worth without paying anything. It was a good start for year 2008..my friend was on his way fetching me home while a police car came behind with his strobes and stopped us. There were 3 police checking and bull shittin' around just for some cash..wasted alot of time and in the end they can't catch anything..what the heck? Why can't they do something better? huh..Neway..here's the end of 2007 so let's look foward for the year of 2008!

HappI New Year guys !!!

Life’s Choices

2007-12-29T01:14:00.000-08:00

THE optimist says life is about choices.

The best part is, you get to choose how you want to live your life.

You choose how you react to situations;

You choose how people affect your mood;

You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood.

Too bad I’m not an optimist.

The pessimist in me finds it hard to make a choice.

I don’t see things as black or white, only grey.

Sometimes, it doesn’t even matter if I choose this or that - I will end up losing both.

That’s when I turn to God and ask why He’s testing me again.

All I want is a life that’s the same as what many others live.

But I think He’s got other ideas and He’s not telling me.

Whatever it is, I’m tired of all these hurdles along the way.

I don’t know how I’m going to cross this one.

And if I do cross it, what awaits me on the other side?

The optimist will tell me it’s something better.

But the pessimist in me will ask: “Since when was it ever better?”

Merry Christmas P-E-E-P-S

2007-12-26T08:26:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas guys! It's been quite awhile since i went to club again for X'mas celebration. Overall it's fun and everyone enjoyed till late night..thanx Kelven, Leong, Candy and her friends as well.
Few weeks back..had my dinner at Subang Parade, took some pictures comming celebration for Christmas..really nice setup there..

cool and peace weather..

lightings..

This is what i got after my Mum came back from Japan..
A Swatch worth 17k yen..

Where to get a Chrono swatch like this in Malaysia?

Coca-cola and marshmallow from Japan

Delicious chips from Japan

What else left there? zzz

Back for a Moment..

2007-12-21T23:08:00.000-08:00

Time for another updated version of my visit to The Art Gallery of Malaysia..nothing much happened lately..been busy with tons or assignments and course work..busy spending time in workshop and so on..

It's a hammer made from rusty nails..

One of the artwork that looks freaking real..

King Kong year 2007 made from toilet brush..

2007-12-14T04:04:00.001-08:00

What The Fuck is this???
A customer came in the shop today saying that his notebook camera have a problem..then he gave me an invoice claiming that he bought his notebook from here..alright then after i identified that he bought it here then i go thru and check with his camera. After checking i told him for his cd driver so that i could reinstall his camera driver to reconfirm the problem either hardware or software.He then straight fucked me saying his notebook came with 3 years warranty then saying that he don't know the problem and don't tell him software or hardware problem that he don't want to know..What the fuck is all this? I'm just explaining to him saying that i wanna check the problem..he keep on fucking me saying that there's no cd driver when he bought his notebook then he take a look at his notebook..his camera hanged cus can't load..then he fucked me again saying 'What you did to the notebook?' Walaneh, i just click open his camera and check his properties hardware..he said i wanna spoil his notebook. Whats the point he bring here..I told him that this is the notebook itself problem..then he said he don't want to know and there's a 3 years warranty..he added that he bought this notebook for 3 thousand and he have the rights to scold and complain. He ask me not to talk to him about computer cus he don't know..ask me to talk about building with him..i was like 'WTF?' I went back to my seats jus dont bother about him but then the old man keep fucking me upsidedown till everyone came n see..Why there's such people in this world? It is just simply sick..It was really bad that he said he will lodge a complain to my boss about my attitude...

The Xtreme Nights 2007

2007-12-13T23:32:00.000-08:00

I will try to upload all the pictures for you guys due to the high demandin for picz..each picture took me about 3-5 minutes..zzz

Arrivals to Bukit Jalil at 9.15 pm

Entrance to The Xtreme Nights!

New decals from zth..

Glowing Myvi..

Police from MLOC

Gangster from MLOC

TWC audio specialist

Kia Optima from B1

Last but not least, a Professional holder who's driving this monster

The Xtreme Nights 2007 by P2oC

2007-12-13T22:53:00.000-08:00

The Xtreme Nights 2007 by P2oC [Part II]

2007-12-13T22:12:00.000-08:00

Convoyin' to The Extreme Nights 2007

2007-12-07T22:32:00.001-08:00

stay tune for pictures & thanx xfac for editin' the picture for our very own rides..

A Visit to National Art Gallery Malaysia

2007-11-30T22:53:00.000-08:00

There aren't much pictures that i can take cus they aren't allow us to do so but i manage to hit some pics outside n inside the building..

One day a long time ago

2007-11-25T01:44:00.000-08:00

One day a long time ago

I made an awful mistake.

Why, I just don't know

but it's caused a lot of heartache.

I was so angry and so scared

I didn't know what to do.

Now you think that I never cared

and now I have lost you.

I don't know how I could hurt you so bad

I loved you with all of my heart.

Now we are both alone and sad

because I have torn us apart.

I wanted us to be together forever

and you always said that we would.

But we couldn't get past the stormy weather

I don't know why I ever thought we could.

I guess sometimes you want something so badly

that you would do anything to get it.

You never think things could turn out so sadly

never realizing someday you'll regret it.

I have never felt so empty inside

I can't go on without you.

I need you here in my life

please know what I say is true.

I am so sorry for all the pain I caused

I never meant to make you cry.

But you will forget about me before long

so please dry the tears from your eyes.

I want nothing more than to hold you forever

and tell you how sorry I am.

I want us to always be together

and go through this life hand in hand.

You were my lover and my best friend

you meant so much to me.

I never wanted this to come to an end

I never wanted you to leave.

I know it is my fault that you are gone

but even the "bad guys" need time to grieve.

I have dreaded this moment for so long

it hurts so bad and there's no relief.

I don't know what to do without you in my life

I feel so lost and alone.

I thought you'd always be by my side

I can't believe I was so wrong.

I wish that you could see into my soul

and realize how much I need you.

The amount of love I have; you'll never know

I wish there were something I could do.

There are no words to show you how I feel

and there are no words to show it was a mistake.

They say with time a broken heart will heal

but I don't know how much more pain I can take.

For all the broken hearts tonight

Stare at the magic of the moon light

Then take a deep breath, yeah.. That's right

Now close your eyes and wait for a while

Ok, now start to think of your dignity and pride.

If the one you love doesn't want your love,

So what is the use of wasting your precious time?

tears, torture yourself in your bloody mind!

Keep asking yourself, why should I waste my tears?

Why should I waste my years?

Hold out for illusion to last, was it a wise thing to ask?

Don't stop until you clearly find all answer popping up to your mind.

Finally you will realize that you want to take him out of your life.

2007-11-23T03:54:00.000-08:00

Stocks stocks stocks...it's been awhile since i get to work on Friday because my colleague was on leave or maybe having his offs..i received a called to work cus there's a desktop rushin to work on it.Stocks pillin' up for awhile but manage to stock up all of them..in a while noticed that the shop is freaking neat in the opposite way, cut my fingers while fixing a desktop and receive a bad news from Candy..thats really sux!

old processor boxes

working enviroment..

well..whats hidden at the back of the shop? tadaa..

newly arrives stocks

taking awhile to do price tags..

TWO WORDS for my conclusion here *BAD DAY*..I'm happy with my work just that im really giving up of helping my friends anymore..gain nothing to give a hand instead of suspecting you trying to cheat on them and run away with their ca$h..Why the fuck i need to do so? fed-up with the news from Candy..I mean the person who took the money n never hand in everything completely..im just fucking piSSed today!

Miss those days when I was in high school..

2007-11-17T10:58:00.000-08:00

Miss those days when I was in high school.
Miss those nostalgic moments that I had shared with my friends.
Miss those days that we created a miracles.
Miss those hard times that we were been through.
Miss those days that we laugh, shout and siao together.

Everyone will think about their past time when they are facing a trouble.
Just like me.
I wish that I have a time machine.
I wish that I could bend the time.

I watched the changes……
How I am going to handle it?
I wish I could step out of this single file line and cover some real distance.

I feel frustrated about my lack of progress.
I can’t control myself when it’s raining days.
Zzz

Self pity is an excuse to do nothing.
I am not the only one victim.

All the cherished memories had gone.
I lost in the mountain face.

I don’t care where I’m going.
I don’t care where I’ve been.
I only know that, as the hero of my own story, it’s for me to find out.

Going thru hard days..

2007-11-17T10:40:00.000-08:00

It's been few months everything went smooth..everything started form last week..everything talks about money..hard earn money gone into fixing my car every month..problems came after i get my digital processor..it turns blank sometimes when im listening to songs..rev meter sudden died and sometimes in working condition..burned some songs in my disc..halfway reading..songs jumping around like nobody business..the worst thing i had that i've paid my $$$ for my new door panel..but it never suits in my car..everything went wrong..

Red Box Karaoke@Sunway Pyramid

2007-11-09T11:03:00.000-08:00

Thursday was a public holiday for everyone to celebrate Deepavali..It's been awhile since i clearing out my throat again.For the occasion, me & my friends decided to head on out to Sunway Pyramid for a Karaoke session at Red Box. The appointment was for 11.30am. However, due to some sleepness night commitments, as usual we were fashionably late which was a reasonable factor for Malaysian peoples.

screens...

new buttons and tv..

By the time I arrived, everyone was already there and the singing had begun..number of us squeeze into room 32.There were five of us including me.The room was quite neat and spacious because of the new renovation that they did.Well, i think that the speakers & woofers are having some bitching sound due to everyone turning out loud everytime.The charges are quite expensive and the food was really sux! I had a great time by singing 8 songs in 2 hours.Overall, I had a good time there...

Room number 32..

walkway..

Updatin' at least a paragraph

2007-11-04T10:25:00.000-08:00

Seems like a freaking long time since my new updates..i was actually busy with classes n all night yum cha session lately..nothing surprise and not much happening news..waking up ma'self at 7 morning for my 8 morning classes..purposely went in late..2 hours class..reach at 8.30 but still i felt like having a 2 hours class..anyway was a little surprised from my boss reaching me a belated birthday present..a little pouch bag in a nice wrapped teddy box.I'm lazy to blog ady..so till here..fuck it!

My new pouch bag.. *LOL*

I wish i could own this..but RM3x for one doesn't worth it for me..

FUCKED for 3 weeks!

2007-10-25T09:53:00.000-07:00

College started about 3 weeks and i've just attended 3 classes for 4 times in 3 weeks..First day of the first week, class was cancelled due to the lecturer was FUCKED up which i don't know why she was so fucking dumb.Second time for the second week..another classes was cancelled when i've just reach to college n had the news from my classmate.I'm so FUCKED with this lecturer cus he picked me to resit for his paper..he looks nerd but i swear that hes a fucker! And the third day for third week, class was cancelled again! I reach to college, i went into the class..i've been sitting there for 20 minutes and she fucking cancelled the class..My fucking time just wasted in college and they just fucking cancelled everything! Now that the fucking parking was undergoing some fucking renovation which made me fucking need to park my car at some farking places..Everything was FUCKED UP!

Noel birthday party..

2007-10-16T09:31:00.000-07:00

wishing Noel a very happy birthday and thanx for ur invitation party at ur house..it is great especially ur mum's handmade pasta and speghetti..lovely food but i came late so everything left less than half.After a long hours hiding at home, we decided to go for drinks at Steven's Corner and thats our last stop..

While i was on way to Cheras..stopped in between a traffic lights..WTF is this? Promoting mans cock pills on the streets..anyone need some?

Burfday boy Noel,,could'nt get a clearer pic cus he's busy entertaining everyone..

Found a nice and large mirror..

Steven's Corner

Wai Keong posing with ciggy's..FucK In The box please?

Limited!

He's daMn Lucky!

2007-10-16T09:11:00.000-07:00

God daMn adorable? isn't it?

College starts after Raya..

2007-10-15T11:44:00.001-07:00

College starts today on the 16th of October and im going to be another dead meat in class..lecturing is freaking bored..driving is freaking bored too..more over the jam in KL its fucking annoying.Blogging at 2.45am now, just finish a call with my very old ex gurl..pity hurting feelings in my heart with some reason.Well, let's forget about it..i've been having fucking fun for 2 days in a row..on Sunday night I went to Eng Soon's home to whack some whiskey n play some cards and im god damn drunk on that day..thanx to dennis anyway for the fun n whacking me up side and down! I woke myself up at 2 in the afternoon felt my brain going *wink wink* and received message from Kelven for another outing later..my schedule is pack again. *LOLS* but wallet is getting empty for yam cha and some counter-strike session. Forget it then cus it's over and my wallet it's empty. *YAY* I've got a new puppy few days ago..some pictures will be loaded man! Love puppies!

2007-10-03T22:14:00.000-07:00

It's been a freaking long time since i updated my blog..so how's everyone doing! College going to start soon and it's freaking bored again, running all the way down just for few classes..it's damn bored but then i misses all my friends so much..gonna meet them all again by next week! Anyway i would like to wish my lil friend Wai Keong for his comming birthday on the 6th of Oct..thanx alot for ur invitation but my work calls..neway, enjoy yourself with all the mates my friend. It's been fucking tired lately..everynight outing with friends and colleague..i freaking need some rest soon..

*ciaos*

2007-09-20T23:10:00.000-07:00

Here's a little preview what i did last summer..hehe

3 birthday boys!

lastest smoking habit..

smoked pineapple!

new absobers from my friends!

to be thrown!

Con shop in Klang..

This is what i call..alignment..

21st

2007-09-16T00:35:00.000-07:00

Another tiring day celebrating my 21st at home..seriously was the first bbq party for me..I'll make it a memoriable day for myself and thanx to all my buddies for shockin surprises and prezzies!

Mr.Gary little cake..duh

talk cock session

buddies..

waiting..

mum, me, sis and dad..

dennis perfectly handsome ride...

2007-09-06T03:33:00.000-07:00

Gonna update my blog since my first finals paper is over..guess what? we are freaking celebrating after the first paper and there are 4 papers more to go..fucking lame..head to a cafe for lunch and continue with our celebration at WCG for few dota games..preparing for the next celebration after the second paper..fucking good friends in college..

the blacks

the whites

Noel stole my cap..damn!

2007-09-01T02:44:00.000-07:00

Celebrating National Day at Eng Soon's house..Well, i would like to thanx Dennis for introducin Eng Soon and his gf to me..Thanx alot for the Chivas..ahha! What a memoriable day!

Everyone is drunk man especially Dennis..wtF he laughing?! DaMn wanK!

2007-08-28T20:30:00.000-07:00

Another day in kLang..spending my fucking free time as usual. Today giving a companion to Kelven to install his new spotlight and met up with Johnny with his new Waja facelift..

woooo..c-west lor (bad squarish spotlight spoil my mood!)

Kelven's 4" bigger than my tacho spotlight..haha!

2007-08-28T03:19:00.000-07:00

My rims gone..The most idiotic and fucktup rims im using now.I know some people is laughing cock..keke..